Dress: Amazon (only $25) | Heels: Amazon | Hair Clip: Amazon
Hudson's Shirt: H&M | Shorts: H&M | Shoes: H&M
Husband's Tee: H&M | Pants: H&M | Shoes: Adidas
I honestly can't believe I am writing this...
For those of you that are new here, I struggle with infertility. It took us two years to get pregnant with our sweet Hudson. It was the hardest journey of my life, but I am so glad I never gave up. You can read the full story here.
I truly thought Hudson would be my only child due to all of it. I have always wanted a big family and siblings for my children. I have two older brothers, who I love immensely, and growing up with them was so fun and special. I really wanted a sibling for Hudson, but came to the point where I needed to be okay if that didn't happen.
I truly thought Hudson would be my only child due to all of it. I have always wanted a big family and siblings for my children. I have two older brothers, who I love immensely, and growing up with them was so fun and special. I really wanted a sibling for Hudson, but came to the point where I needed to be okay if that didn't happen.
Around February (which is when I was actually pregnant and didn't know it) Hudson began to randomly tell me, "Mom, I wish we had a baby." or "Mom, I wish I had a brother/sister." I have no where it came from or where he even got that from, especially since all his cousins don't have siblings. It literally broke my heart in pieces. I mean, we always tell Hudson what a miracle he is, but how do you tell a three year old that mommy can't get pregnant. Truly made my stomach sick.
One day, Hudson and I were playing and he said, "Mom, you pretend to be my brother, because I don't have one." It took everything in me to hold back the tears. Then the day came when I realized my period was three days late. I honestly didn't even think of taking a pregnancy test, because I have had so many "negative" results. A few days passed and still no period. So I just went for it and took a pregnancy test. Within seconds the two lines appeared! I couldn't believe it. I still didn't believe into be 100% sure, since I got a negative result when I was actually pregnant with Hudson. So off to the doctor I went. And they confirmed it! I was 4 weeks pregnant.
If you are reading this and struggling with infertility, please hold on to hope. I remember reading these same posts and seeing all the pregnancy announcement photos, my heart would break into a thousand pieces and I wanted to just hide and never come out. Keep believing it will happen. Faith is a powerful thing. If you haven't gone to a doctor, take that step of bravery, call and make an appointment. It took me so long to even pick up the phone. But I remember telling myself step by step and day by day.
Keep fighting, keep believing. The things in life that take the longest to get to us from Heaven are often the most precious and indescribable miracles.
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